Recently, there have been many times where I’ve felt afraid going home late at night. I live near Esteban Abada (the street behind Katipunan Ave.) and the area near my corner has been known for many hold-ups, robberies, and other crimes. Since it’s pretty dark near my house and there are small sketchy alleys near it, I can’t doubt the stories. Every time I go home at night, I walk as fast as I can and I feel scared. I look around me every few seconds and even turn on my phone flashlight to check corners. If you think about it, its actually good that I’m afraid because I always try to make sure I’m safe.
On the bright side of my stressful life right now, there are still times when I feel happy. It’s mostly when I get time to rest and finally enjoy things. For example, when there are no more projects left or tests that I have to study for, it’s much easier for me to be happy because I have nothing to think about. I am guilty about overthinking of all the stuff I need to do so I can’t really be as happy as I used to be when I still have tasks at hand. When I finally am, I know it for sure because I can actually take time watching shows and enjoying my food and sleep.
I think it’s helpful knowing the ABCs of my basic emotions because I do experience them often. It’s better to be aware of how you’re feeling so you understand yourself and also become more rational in handling these emotions. You have to make the most of what you have and always improve.
Understanding the Self 